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July 19

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July 19 is a big day in our house.  It is Daddy’s birthday and the boys’ half birthday.  So, to start this post off right we will wish our daddy of the house HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!  What an incredible man I have!  Over the past 12 years I’ve always tried to make his birthday a big deal….I’ve thrown a few surprise parties and a BIG party for his 30th.  This year we didn’t do anything BIG but it was just as nice.  I baked him a cake.  Oh boy did it turn out beautiful.  This is when I wish I could create a “sarcasm” font.  It wasn’t pretty but it sure tasted good!  We had dinner at a local hibachi restaurant with the family and the boys entertained us the entire time of course.

Back to my man.  Jason is always showing me how much he loves me.  He had done so many simple, yet amazingly romantic things….made his very own Valentine’s Day card with a paper rose and all back in college, he had a custom poem written for me for our anniversary this year, he would pick me up from class with a rose just because, he has stopped in the middle of a random day just to slow dance and the list goes on.  Even better he has been an incredible father.  He never missed a feeding, even in the middle of the night when he would have to get up and go to school the next day.  He has never once mentioned any hint of a complaint at missing out on certain events because we have kids now.  And he is always so involved the minute he gets home from work.

He truly cares about his patients and is an awesome chiropractor.  He puts his heart and soul into his work and wants to be the best he can be because he wants to help people.

I do thank God every day for my man.

We love you Daddy!

Happy Birthday to my amazing man!

Until next post…

The Mamarazzi

 

July 20, 2011
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Twins

Posted in Fynn, Jason, Jordan, Sutton, Twins by

I love having twins.  I really do.  Even when they were not yet sleeping through the night (I was blessed with a very involved husband even at 3 am feedings) or during the time of bottles and spit-up, I have always loved having twins.

Growing up with an older brother I knew I wanted more than one child.  Now, seeing my TWO together brings so much joy to my heart!  When I lost my mom at 18 I was so thankful to have my brother, Uncle Jordan.  He is truly someone I can talk about anything with and the ONE person who remembers our mother like I do.  I pray nothing happens to my husband or I at an early age but if it were to happen I’m so thankful our boys have each other.

Watching them together is so fun!  They play and giggle and hug and kiss and dance together.  Yes, there are spats here and there but for the most part it’s love and fun.

It’s also kind of weird to never know what it is like to only have ONE child.  When people often ask us, “How do you do it?!”  We always reply, “We dont’ know anything ELSE!”  It’s weird but also kind of refreshing.  Never knowing what it’s like to only have one, I’ve always been aware of my attention being spread equally and making sure each boy knows how much I love him.  There are times when one will wake from a nap early and I sneak in to get him out of his crib for some one-on-one time before his brother wakes up.  But for the most part I am reminding myself DAILY to always treat them equally and acknowledge each as an individual for they are SO different!

It’s also fun having twins because you instantly bond with anyone who has multiples.  It is kind of like a secret code.  I’ve made so many new friends just by having twins….on Facebook, in the blog world and in real life.  And anytime anyone comes to me with questions about having twins I get so excited because I can pass on all the knowledge and wisdom that I was so lucky to receive.

Love my twins.

Until next post…..they will be 18 months tomorrow!!!

The Mamarazzi

July 19, 2011
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Shoes

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We are those parents who never put shoes on our kids.  If we do, it is usually sandals since it is so HOT outside.  But, the boys’ feet have outgrown their sandals so this morning when we were getting ready for church I pulled out some Chucks we got them at the Converse outlet in Kansas City back in May.  They were so confused as to what was on their feet!  That was a BIG sign we need to start wearing shoes so they don’t fight it later.

When you have to buy TWO pair you tend to not want to buy many shoes.  I think we will sport our Chucks this week to get used to them.  I can’t take them to preschool in the fall without shoes!

Until next post…

The Mamarazzi

July 17, 2011
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Not Where I Thought I’d Be But…

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June 29, 2009 Ultrasound

I meet people all the time who say, “I want twins!”  I used to find it so odd to hear because growing up I never ONCE even thought about twins.  I didn’t know much about twins or multiples so it never was a topic of conversation.  When I was younger I envisioned myself growing up, graduating college, getting married and having A BABY.  It’s funny what we THINK we will do and what God brings us.

I met Jason my first semester at college in 1999.  We moved in together within 6 months (drastic I know…our families weren’t too thrilled) and when school let out for summer in 2002 Jason proposed.  Obviously I said yes and that following year, one month after I graduated college we got hitched.  Now, prior to the wedding we always knew we wanted to have kids we just didn’t set in stone WHEN.

Well, we got home from our honeymoon and BABY FEVER set in.  I now warn all my girlfriends of this intense, sudden feeling as soon as the wedding festivities pass because I was NOT prepared.  It’s funny because I hear girlfriends admit this feeling too.  I think we, as women, are sometimes programmed “first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes a baby in a baby carriage” so once the wedding is over, onto the next step.  Seems logical, right?

Jason had just started his undergrad work to eventually head to chiropractic college so it wasn’t the most appealing time for us.  But, it happened and neither one of us thought it would.  We REALLY weren’t trying.  So for our first anniversary we got to FREAK OUT that we were pregnant.  I will never forget the words popping up on the digital pregnancy test “PREGNANT!”  Okay, it didn’t have an exclamation point but it felt like it did.  Up until this very moment I WANTED a baby but never once had I sat down and REALLY thought about what it meant to have a baby.  But once the shock wore off we were excited.  We knew we would just figure it out.

We announced the news to our family on Father’s Day a week later and everyone was thrilled for us.  Fast forward to July 10 (yes I remember the day) I started having complications and we had lost the baby.  TALK ABOUT A BLOW!!  I took it extremely hard and found it to be a HUGE wake up call that I was not as ready as I thought.  Baby talk was put on hold.

Two years later, once we had moved to Kansas City and started getting settled the baby topic came up.  We had been to church that Sunday evening and the message was about finding your passion in life.  After that evening service Jason and I went to Village Inn and started discussing the subject.  I knew Jason was meant to be a chiropractor.  I had yet to meet anyone as passionate as he was about chiropractic and how much he genuinely wanted to HELP people….besides his father that is.  In our discussion I explained that the only thing I ever felt a calling to do was to be a mother.  Yes, I had attended college and received a degree in Advertising & Sales but that wasn’t what I was PASSIONATE about, just something that sounded interested at 18 years old.

The original plan was to wait until Jason was done with school to start a family but that September evening in 2006 after our visit to church and the ever-romantic and enlightening Village Inn, we started trying to have a baby.  Jason explained to me that it wasn’t fair for me to have to wait all those years to get to be a mother when I had supported his every decision toward becoming a chiropractor.

One month passed, two then three and finally six.  The worry set in.  The first pregnancy happened so easily and wasn’t even planned.  WHY was it taking so long?  I started researching online for tips and tricks and all the fun things we can laugh about now (anyone reading this that has tried to conceive will be laughing as well), now that we have BABIES.  I came across a message board full of women who were in my situation.  I started checking in a few times a day and we all became pretty close friends.  It’s amazing to see women support one another and encourage one another, even when they are struggling themselves.  And to this day, 4 1/2 years later I still talk to a majority of those women!

Nothing was working.  We tried supplements, acupuncture and a lot of other things I won’t share with the world.  But every month was a disappointment.  Finally we came upon a year of trying.  My doctor suggested a Reproductive Endocrinologist so to him we went for answers.  We got our answers.  We were told we had a better chance of getting pregnant by going to dinner and a movie than going to the bedroom.  Talk about painful news.  The procedure he recommended was In-Vitro Fertilization.  The costs were OUTRAGEOUS and the process was intimidating.  We attempted IUI just to SEE if it would work.  No luck.  We decided to hold off and try more of the same.  That was September of 2007.

Skip through months of sadness, disappointment, frustration, tears, anger and so on.  We were trying to save and figure out how to pay for this procedure once we decided to actually do it.  We were approached by my stepfather in April 2008.  He said he would donate a very nice donation to the “Blair and Jason Want a Baby” project.  Bring on the water-works!  After that evening we realized we should seriously consider WHEN we would want to attempt this invasive procedure now that it was more realistic…..we decided we would address it after the first of the year.  Then 2009 came and I said, “Let’s do it!”  With more contributions from family and our savings we were finally ready.

So we thought.

At the end of January 2009 we went in for the consult with our RE who went over every.single.detail.  We got started.  Not to bore you with the medical details…basically when the time came for the stim shots to start my body was not responding.  I was taking one shop a day.  This continued until April.  Yes, until April.  ONE SHOT EVERY SINGLE DAY!  Finally in April we took a break and were planned to start fresh with all new meds in May.  My body had a horrible time trying to respond positively to the meds but once it did the timing could not have been more PERFECT.

May 13, 2009 I got the news my grandfather had passed.  It was right after Mother’s Day, which is already a very difficult holiday for me….I was missing my mom and working so hard to try and become a mom.  I went in to get my blood work at the RE’s office before we headed home for the funeral.  The nurses and entire staff there knew us pretty well by that point and they were really cheering us on!  In the car on the way to my grandfather’s house I got the email….EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT!  I finally could start the stim shots.

From that point on it was a blur.  I was doing 2-3 shots a day for about 11 days I think.  We went in for the egg retrieval on May 27 and when I came out they informed us we had 15 eggs!  WOO HOO!  If you know IVF terms you know that is great.  We then got the embryo report the next day.  We had 13 viable, healthy embryos.  We transferred two and of course now you know two stuck.  We even have 8 still frozen for future use if we choose to do so.

I write this post because I have met SO MANY women who were in my shoes.  Women who have experienced miscarriage and/or fertility struggles.  I decided from day one of this struggle to be an open book.  I want women out there to know what we went through so if they ever need anything they know who to ask because I was fortunate to have women like that in my life.

Did I ever think this was HOW I would get pregnant?  NO

Did I ever think I would have TWINS?  NEVER

Would I change anything about the entire experience?  HECK NO!!!

God’s timing was so perfect in all of it.  I thank Him for the struggle, I truly do.  I appreciate my children more and more because I remember those days when I would just sit on the bathroom floor crying and wondering WHY this was happening.  I thank Him for surprising us with twins because that in itself is an experience I would never trade with another

Until next post….

The Mamarazzi

July 15, 2011
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Stylin’

Posted in Fynn, Haircut, Sutton by

Before Pictures…..

Jesse’s little girl was helping cheer the boys up before the haircuts.

Hair is out of control!

Hair everywhere!!  Jesse over at Good Girl Gone Glad came over to cut the boys’ hair and it started out a tad rough.  The boys didn’t nap as long as usual and they were struggling to keep a happy face.  I had to hold Sutton while he had his buzz but Fynn was a champ and mostly sat in the chair all by himself.  We had planned on doing Mohawks but once we started it was becoming clear their hair was too thin and has many funny cowlicks to do a full-on Mohawk.  This style will be cute without being fixed but we can also throw some product in it and give it some STYLE!!!

Those are his REAL blue eyes!

We had the Backyardigans on and that distracted him for a bit.

He seems to like it.

So does Sutton.

There was hair everywhere mainly because of Fynn….did you see the before picture???  He must have lost a few pounds from his buzz.  Sutton was running around and getting in it before we could clean it up and he DID NOT like it all over his hands and feet.  Probably was a bit itchy.

Everyone always says they don’t like how haircuts make kids look so much older but I feel different now.  I remember their first haircuts in January right before their first birthday I was kind of sad after because they didn’t have that baby look to them anymore.  But, now they will be 18 months next week and they are acting so much older I think it fits them.

Yes, it is natural to experience sadness with each new day that passes and they become more adult and less baby BUT I also get excited about the future……I tear up with expectations thinking about their first day at school, their first sports game, their first time to ride a bike without training wheels, their first sleepover, their first EVERYTHING!  Yes we have passed the rolling over, the crawling, the walking and all the baby milestones but each new day gets MORE fun and they are MORE my buddies than my babies.

These two guys bring so much joy and fulfillment words won’t ever be able to describe.  Yes, time is going by so fast but the unknowns are still so exciting to look forward to with them.

Thank you Jesse for the haircuts!!  You and your family are such amazing people and I hope my kiddos turn out as awesome as yours…they were so cute today!

Until next post….

The Mamarazzi

July 14, 2011
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We Love Bathtime

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Our boys have never fought taking a bath….since their first bath in our kitchen sink that Kiki gave them, they have always gotten excited when it’s time to get in the tub.  One time Fynn even hopped in all by himself with his diaper and t-shirt still on.

Fynn loves books even in the bath!

They love it when Daddy pours water from above!

They love storytime!

Until next post…

The Mamarazzi

July 13, 2011
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Backyard Fun

Posted in Fynn, Jason, Outside, Playtime, Sutton by

BoysIt is middle of July here and the temperatures will not go below 100 degrees!  It’s miserably HOT!  The boys cannot be outside for longer than 5 minutes without their cheeks turning maroon.

I haven’t been taking them out back during the week because it is so hot but last night after dinner the backyard was mostly shaded so we let them out to play and even get a little wet!

Fynn

Fynn cannot stand the grass on his hands!

SuttonThis is Sutton’s way of saying, “I’m ready to play in the water!”

Now we’re talking…

Nights like these are my favorite!  I love watching my boys enjoy the simple fun of water coming out of a hose….and the giggles are contagious!

Until next post…..HINT Mohawks are coming tomorrow…

The Mamarazzi

July 12, 2011
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Grandma….Great Grandma That Is

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Grandma….Jason’s Grandma is also Grandma to our boys.  Technically she is Great Grandma but everyone calls her Grandma.  Great is an understatement when referring to this woman.

Grandma

Grandma came to stay with us once Kiki had to go home and we were so thankful for her two weeks with us.  Grandma was a cooking, cleaning, laundry, bottle washing, sanitizing, baby loving MACHINE!  We were so spoiled!  Grandma is always there when you need her and she and Grandpa even supply our boys with fresh, whole milk every week.  She made the boys’ crib bedding, their “first Thanksgiving” bibs, their “first Christmas” ornaments and she is always surprising them with fun toys and books.  For their first Easter she and Grandpa sent the boys books with their voices recorded as if they were reading to them.  They still have them in their bedroom.

Grandpa

Just as recently as a couple of weeks ago, Grandma came to stay with us and help watch the boys so I could work in the clinic more.  She showed up with the boys’ favorite toys – BALOONS AND BUBBLES!  She even introduced them to sidewalk chalk, which they love more each time they use it.  And in usual fashion she was such a wonderful cook and took wonderful care of all of us.

I only got to meet my grandmothers and one grandfather but never did I get to meet my GREAT grandparents.  My boys are so lucky that they will get to grow up knowing and loving their GREAT grandma and grandpa.

She has taught them how to wink and quack like a duck.  When I talk about being PRESENT….they are.

We love you GREAT Grandma and Grandpa!

Until next post…

The Mamarazzi

July 8, 2011
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Playtime

Posted in Fynn, Playtime, Sutton by

We usually start our day after breakfast with playtime.  When we built this house it was determined the “game room” upstairs would be TOY LAND!!  It is perfect for the boys’ toys….you can shut the doors and not worry about the mess.  They have lots of books, blocks, puzzles, a play table with legos and train tracks, a basketball goal, mini recliners, trucks, musical instruments and even a BALL PIT!

Sutton’s favorite thing to do is tip the ball pit over and run around in all the balls.  Once they are finished doing that Fynn will lead the way with putting all the balls back in the pit.  Teaching ’em young! 🙂

SuttonFynnSuttonFynnFynnSuttonCuddles

They also love playing in the big blanket and I caught them cuddling up on it talking to each other…..such a sweet moment!

Until next post…

The Mamarazzi

July 7, 2011
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Our Kiki

Posted in Fynn, Jason, Kiki, Sutton by

Mother's Day 2011

What would we do without our Kiki?!!!  Jason’s mom is “kiki” to our boys and cannot be called “grandma” because she looks way too young for that name.  She has been there since Day One.  Literally.  She drove up the SECOND she got the call the boys were coming that she didn’t even wait for Jason’s dad, she just hit the road.  She stayed with us for 3 weeks and I cried ALL.DAY.LONG when she had to leave.  She went to all the doctor’s appointments with me since Jason was still finishing up chiropractic school.  All the nurses thought she was my sister, not the Kiki.

Kiki

She was a LIFE SAVER!  I honestly can say we would have gone crazy without her.  Not having my own mother around I knew so little and was so scared of even the simplist thing.  She gave them their first bath at home, she would suck the HUGE boogies out of Fynn’s nose, she would make sure we ate and slept and when Jason got sick she camped out in the living room and did all the feedings with me.  She would calm my nerves when we had to take Sutton in for his heart murmur and hip dysplasia.  When I would just cry for no reason other than pure exhaustion she would calmly tell me that everything would be okay.  When I was so sad about Sutton’s inability to latch and nurse she reassured me he would be just find drinking from a bottle.  Kiki made everything feel like it would all be okay.  And it was.

First Bath

I was utterly exhausted and trying to heal from a c-section and Kiki saved me!  As soon as the boys finished their first bottles she would take them in the living room and tell me to go back to sleep.  It was the best gift anyone could offer at that moment.  I would get up and come into the living room and she would be covered in babies.  When it was getting closer to her leaving I was terrified to be alone with the twins and handle feedings, etc. on my own.  Fynn was nursing but Sutton had to have a bottle because of his latching problems so doing a simultaneous feeding was daunting.  Kiki went to Target and gave me the opportunity to do a “trial run” and when she walked in I had Fynn latched nursing with a bottle in Sutton’s mouth.  I had never felt so accomplished in my entire life.  Those few weeks were so amazing and I will always look back and be thankful for the bonding we got to experience.  A new mom without her mom is a horribly sad situation.  My mom’s death REALLY hit home once the boys were born.  It continues to get harder at times with each new day realizing everything my mom is missing.  She would have truly enjoyed being around my babies!

Kiki

I’m just so thankful my kids have ONE amazing Kiki.  Grandmas are special to all children and I remember both mine fondly.  I remember our rituals and loving moments.  I am so happy my boys will grow up with such an involved Kiki.

KikiKiki

The boys get to spend every Tuesday and Wednesday afternoon with their Kiki so I can go work with Jason at the clinic.  We live 2 miles from Jason’s parents so we are together often.  Pappy, Jason’s dad, and Kiki have been so involved with babysitting and spending time with our kids, sometimes they go running for them instead of Mommy and Daddy.

Kiki & Pappy

It is so important for kids to have parents AND grandparents who are not just involved but who are PRESENT.  I’ve learned so much growing up that it isn’t about the gifts or the trips or any of the material things….I remember the moments when I looked up and saw my family PRESENT in what was going on around us.  They were PRESENT in the moment of putting together my Barbie house or rocking in a chair or reading a book…..that was what mattered.  The eye contact.  The embraces.  Showing up when it counts.  The physical act of showing someone you are PRESENT and you LOVE them.  I want my children to be surrounded with that type of love every single day.

Kiki

We Love You Kiki!

July 7, 2011
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