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Our Kiki

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Mother's Day 2011

What would we do without our Kiki?!!!  Jason’s mom is “kiki” to our boys and cannot be called “grandma” because she looks way too young for that name.  She has been there since Day One.  Literally.  She drove up the SECOND she got the call the boys were coming that she didn’t even wait for Jason’s dad, she just hit the road.  She stayed with us for 3 weeks and I cried ALL.DAY.LONG when she had to leave.  She went to all the doctor’s appointments with me since Jason was still finishing up chiropractic school.  All the nurses thought she was my sister, not the Kiki.


She was a LIFE SAVER!  I honestly can say we would have gone crazy without her.  Not having my own mother around I knew so little and was so scared of even the simplist thing.  She gave them their first bath at home, she would suck the HUGE boogies out of Fynn’s nose, she would make sure we ate and slept and when Jason got sick she camped out in the living room and did all the feedings with me.  She would calm my nerves when we had to take Sutton in for his heart murmur and hip dysplasia.  When I would just cry for no reason other than pure exhaustion she would calmly tell me that everything would be okay.  When I was so sad about Sutton’s inability to latch and nurse she reassured me he would be just find drinking from a bottle.  Kiki made everything feel like it would all be okay.  And it was.

First Bath

I was utterly exhausted and trying to heal from a c-section and Kiki saved me!  As soon as the boys finished their first bottles she would take them in the living room and tell me to go back to sleep.  It was the best gift anyone could offer at that moment.  I would get up and come into the living room and she would be covered in babies.  When it was getting closer to her leaving I was terrified to be alone with the twins and handle feedings, etc. on my own.  Fynn was nursing but Sutton had to have a bottle because of his latching problems so doing a simultaneous feeding was daunting.  Kiki went to Target and gave me the opportunity to do a “trial run” and when she walked in I had Fynn latched nursing with a bottle in Sutton’s mouth.  I had never felt so accomplished in my entire life.  Those few weeks were so amazing and I will always look back and be thankful for the bonding we got to experience.  A new mom without her mom is a horribly sad situation.  My mom’s death REALLY hit home once the boys were born.  It continues to get harder at times with each new day realizing everything my mom is missing.  She would have truly enjoyed being around my babies!


I’m just so thankful my kids have ONE amazing Kiki.  Grandmas are special to all children and I remember both mine fondly.  I remember our rituals and loving moments.  I am so happy my boys will grow up with such an involved Kiki.


The boys get to spend every Tuesday and Wednesday afternoon with their Kiki so I can go work with Jason at the clinic.  We live 2 miles from Jason’s parents so we are together often.  Pappy, Jason’s dad, and Kiki have been so involved with babysitting and spending time with our kids, sometimes they go running for them instead of Mommy and Daddy.

Kiki & Pappy

It is so important for kids to have parents AND grandparents who are not just involved but who are PRESENT.  I’ve learned so much growing up that it isn’t about the gifts or the trips or any of the material things….I remember the moments when I looked up and saw my family PRESENT in what was going on around us.  They were PRESENT in the moment of putting together my Barbie house or rocking in a chair or reading a book…..that was what mattered.  The eye contact.  The embraces.  Showing up when it counts.  The physical act of showing someone you are PRESENT and you LOVE them.  I want my children to be surrounded with that type of love every single day.


We Love You Kiki!

July 7, 2011


Posted in Fynn, Jason, Mealtime, Sutton by

Mealtime at our house can be very messy.  Jason and I have learned to accept this.

The boys usually play or cuddle up with Daddy while I fix dinner.  I love that our kitchen is open to the living room so I don’t feel so left out.  Every few minutes one of the boys might check to see if I need help.  🙂

Cuddle TimeSutton Chewing His Book


Tonight the boys had some yummy organic baked ziti with broccoli and rice focaccia bread with an apple crisp for dessert.  I think they liked it.







They do understand the concept of a fork but once you put the food into bowls they just want to pick the bowl up and play with it.  So we just plop the food in front of them and let them go to town.

Until next post….

The Mamarazzi

July 6, 2011

A Year Ago

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I like to look back at all the old pictures of my babies and see how much they have changed.

This was taken a year ago….

6 months old

And here they were at the lake – from previous post…..

Lake House

If only they would stay as still as they did a year ago…..

Until next post….

The Mamarazzi

July 5, 2011

Lake House

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Today was the boys’ first trip to the lake house.  Jason and I used to go every summer with friends and family but my last time there was two years ago and I was pregnant and exhausted so I didn’t enjoy the full effect of being at the lake.

Fynn and Sutton had a lot of fun.  I am positive they will look back at their childhood and have plenty of fond memories at the lake house.

We laid in the hammock…

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We played inside….had to take breaks so the boys’ cheeks could return to a normal hue instead of BEET red from the heat and humidity.

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We went down to the shore and Daddy showed the boys how to throw rocks in the water.  That was a HIT!  They did not want to leave.  As we were walking away they kept picking up rocks to throw.

I think there is something in the genetic make up of all males that makes rocks attractive to play with.

Boys will be Boys.

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We played in the yard….plenty of space to run free!

Lake houseLake HouseWatching Daddy coming up from the dock.  Dad got to clean the boat!  🙂  So much fun I’m sure.

Lake House

We even played in the game room and watched all the boaters from the window.

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Yes I ended up taking more pictures of Fynn this time around because his brother was a good boy and slept an hour longer.

After grilling out for dinner we came home and as we pulled in our driveway we got to show the boys their first fireworks from our front yard.

Until next post….

The Mamarazzi

July 4, 2011

My Family Part III

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Ahhhhh my sweet Sutton!!!


Sutton is my youngest.  🙂  He is two minutes younger than Fynn and I am sure that will be mentioned often down the road.

I will never forget my worry for this sweet boy.  Later in my pregnancy I found out I had cholestasis, which required me to go to the doctor twice a week for bio physicals.  This was basically a sonogram which allowed us to monitor the boys’ breathing, movements, heart rates, etc.  There had been a couple of appointments where we thought we would be delivering but then decided after more tests it was okay to allow the pregnancy to continue a bit longer.  At 35 weeks and 5 days I went into the appointment alone and came out heading to the hospital.  I remember calling my mother-in-law from the waiting room telling her I was going to BEG and PLEAD for my doctor to take them out NOW.  The itching was beyond torture…..IT.WOULD.NOT.STOP!  I think Jason was ready for it to be over as well, since the scratching kept him up all night too.  During the biophysical Fynn passed with flying colors but they spend over an HOUR on Sutton and had concerns for his well-being.  That was at 4:00 and they were born at 6:14 and 6:16 p.m.

Once Fynn was out I was so tense waiting to hear my next little guy’s cry.  He was breach and the doctor had a tough time getting him out.  Fynn had been head down ready to come out for some time so he was quick to come out.  After what felt like 30 minutes (which in all actuality was more like 30 seconds) I was told Sutton was out.  I didn’t hear any crying though.  I kept asking if he was okay and they assured me he was fine that breach babies sometimes don’t cry right when they are born.  Jason ran over to check on him and came back to inform me “Sutton has your big lips!”  He did have a few hiccups – minor hip dysplasia, heart murmur and a recessed chin, which made nursing almost impossible.Daddy & Sutton

The feeling I described in Fynn’s post was magnified now – all of this times two within minutes of each other might make a woman faint!  Seeing them together, one in each of daddy’s arms was a vision I will never ever forget.

A week after we came home from the hospital we went back to visit some friends who had just had their son.  In the hallway we saw my anesthesiologist who was BEYOND AMAZING!!!!!!!!  I wish I could remember his name.  He stopped us in the hallway of the hospital and told us that after our delivery he went home and told his wife he had seen such a beautiful moment of pure joy and happiness.  He said he has done this so long and it’s usually all the same but with us he saw something awesome.  I thought that was so sweet!

Sutton had two things from day 1 – BIG LIPS and HUGE CHEEKS!


This child slept the first 3-4 months of life.  Literally would suck a bottle down without even opening his eyes.  Every photo I took with my iPhone was of him asleep or looking about half-asleep.  He had the most adorable little grin.  His dark blue eyes would light up when he would smile.  He was always such a snuggler!  We got into a horrible habit of letting him sleep on our chests because the sweetness of those moments was undeniable.  My father-in-law is the nickname man and he still to this day calls Sutton “potato man.”  No one is quite sure why it is his nickname but it is.

Sutton Sleeping

Sutton & Mama

Now at almost 18 months old he is such a passionate, vibrant, entertaining little guy.  He is so vocal and speaks with such conviction he could convince you the sky is purple.  This child has little to no fear!  He would walk right off the couch if we would let him.  This fearlessness has led us to sometimes refer to him as “knot head.”  Sutton can’t go one week without banging into something.  His favorite game is peek-a-boo and like his brother he LOVES books.  They love their Bible Stories and Bible Prayers books, which makes me a happy mama.  Sutton has been such a wonderful eater since he was a baby.  I was always so sad because he couldn’t nurse well.  He only latched ONCE and I will never forget the bonding I felt to him and how elated I was in that moment.  But, I worked so hard to pump for him to get some breast milk!!

Sutton has the funniest facial expressions and it seems like each second there is a new one.  His favorite is the crinkled nose!  He will do it when he is happy and even when he is angry.  This boy’s laugh is from the GUT!  It is the funniest most contagious giggle and it comes out pretty easy.  I always say he is my passionate child.  He can be emotional and temper-mental but he can also be the most tender boy.  He loves to share his toys with me and gets frustrated when Fynn won’t take what he is trying to give him.

I’m so curious as to who these two guys will grow into.  It’s so amazing to see two children who shared a womb for 35 weeks and 5 days share a language only they understand, yet they are so different in so many ways!

I don’t do much as far as making an impact on the world….I don’t save lives, I don’t fight in wars, I don’t make million dollar decisions each day…..but I will say this, I will do my best to raise two well-rounded, polite, loving and admirable boys who I hope will make a wonderful difference in their lives.

Until next post….

The Mamarazzi

July 3, 2011