October was full of fun! We painted pumpkins and went to the pumpkin patch as well as Halloween. Fynn was Boba Fett and Sutton was Obi Wan Kenobi. Evie was SuperBaby. We introduced Evie to her playmat, which she loves!
Our little lady arrived August 28 at 8:28 p.m.
Her birth was absolutely amazing! I have been planning on having a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) since the boys were born. Where we live there aren’t many doctors who will perform VBACs so your choices are limited. When I was just over 40 weeks I learned my doctor was going out of town, which meant if I went into labor I wouldn’t be guaranteed a VBAC. So we decided to do a very conservative induction on the 28th. Jason and I arrived at the hospital by 7:30 a.m. and things were started about 8:30 a.m. My body kicked into gear pretty fast and I was laboring well. I had an awesome nurse and Jason helping me and my doula arrived a little later in the day. By 4:30 p.m. I was 5 cm and at 5:45 p.m. my water broke.
The entire day I kept hearing a voice say “epidural” over and over and I kept blocking it out. My goal had been to do a natural birth. But once my water broke the contractions were completely different and that voice got louder and louder. My doula had me pick a code word, which meant I was serious and wanted the epidural…..I chose “bumblebee tuna” thanks to help from Jason. The only thing that kept coming to my head was “butterball turkey” so I kept getting frustrated. I finally gave my code word and by 6:39 p.m. the epidural was in.
At 7:54 p.m. I started pushing and she was born at 8:28 p.m. I will NEVER EVER forget that moment when they put her on my chest. It was that moment I had missed out on with my c-section and was the moment I had dreamed about for years. It was so surreal and literally almost like an out of body experience.
What followed is a complete blur now. I remember chaos. Doctors and nurses everywhere. Panic on some faces. Me throwing up over and over. I zoned out and just stared at our baby.
Turns out my placenta was embedded in my uterus – placenta accreta. My doctor asked if I was done having kids and would be open to a hysterectomy. No not ready for that. I JUST GAVE BIRTH! She performed a D&C and they literally worked for over an hour and got as much as they could. This is the point I’m so thankful I had the epidural. If I hadn’t I would have been rushed to the OR and put under.
From what my doula, husband and mother in law told me there was a lot of blood.
They immediately placed Evie on my chest when she was born and I got to enjoy those first moments but once things got hectic I didn’t get to hold her much. I was so weak and light-headed and throwing up so I was in condition to hold her.
A few hours later they had me wheeled into a different Labor & Delivery room. They kept me in L&D because I would need closer monitoring but we lucked out and Jason had his own bed. They had me on a lot of different medications and my recovery was not what I had expected. The medications made me tired, nauseous and one made me spike a fever. I ended up getting two blood transfusions due to all the blood I lost. It was a little chaotic but through it all Evie was great! She slept, nursed and pooped around the clock.
Until that Saturday. Jason had returned from grabbing lunch and he was letting me eat so he changed Evie’s diaper and noticed a little blood. A nurse was in my room taking my vitals and giving me meds so he had her look at it and then from there it seemed like a whirlwind. Jason went with her into the nursery for an x-ray and they found blood in her belly. She was quickly admitted to the step-up NICU for monitoring and testing and received multiple blood transfusions as well.
I WAS A MESS! I was so emotionally and physically exhausted I couldn’t take much more. Not only was I dealing with the fears of my situation but now we had to worry if our baby was going to be okay. By Sunday they had moved her to the children’s hospital NICU, which meant Jason had to wheel me all the way over to see her and it was so difficult leaving her each time.
By Tuesday morning we still didn’t have a cause of the bleeding but she hadn’t passed anymore blood since Sunday evening so they FINALLY let her eat. She was only supposed to nurse 15 minutes and try to limit her intake to 10mL. The little overachiever continuously took in more than the “allowed” amount. By Wednesday they were letting her eat as long and as much as she wanted. She was finally off IVs and her color was coming back. I went home Monday night but each day I spent the entire day at the hospital with her. It was so emotionally draining sitting in there all day. Being surrounded by all those tiny babies and families who were suffering and dealing with way worse scenarios than us. It was such a reminder to be thankful we had something fixable and not as serious. I just sat and prayed and prayed for those babies.
By Thursday morning we were being discharged! And she came home that afternoon and has been such a sweet baby. She sleeps so well at night, going on 4 hour stretches. She was weighed on Tuesday of this week and was already back above her birth weight – 8 lbs 6.5 oz.
I’m currently being monitored weekly by my doctor to see how my body reacts with the remaining placenta. I’m still on medications, which make me tired and a little out of it but I’m adjusting. I get weekly blood tests and as of now my body is reacting well. The placenta appears to be dying off slowly, which is great. I keep trying to cherish each day and each moment but I am ready to fast forward to the day I am back to “normal” and can enjoy this new family of five.
The story of Evelyn Ann……
I can’t believe it has been so long since my last post! With my photography business and the boys and every day life time slipped by.
First, the boys are awesome. We really are blessed with two amazing kiddos! They just wrapped up their final year at preschool and will begin preK in August. We played tball this spring and it was hilarious! They did exactly what I thought they would……Fynn was focused and determined to play well and learn the game while Sutton just had fun. We did swim lessons for two weeks, which helped SO MUCH with their swimming abilities.
Last year Jason and I discussed when we would make the move and schedule an appointment with the fertility doctor. We had a summer full of fun and decided to make the appointment for September. With the boys we had to do a fresh IVF cycle and it took months and months to get my body regulated and to even do the procedure but we didn’t know what would take place with a frozen embryo transfer.
It still took months….
But, like always, God had a plan and He is always perfect in His ways. So, on December 5 we finally got to go in for our transfer. We were giddy and nervous and super hopeful. Our little embryo was as perfect as it could be.
We had two weeks to wait for an actual blood test but less than a week went by and I couldn’t wait…..I tested and tested and tested. Positive!!!!!!!!!!
We were able to tell family and our best friends pretty and then got confirmation with the blood test. The day before our scheduled ultrasound I started bleeding. I called Jason crying and I was just terrified of losing this baby. I wasn’t sure I could handle another loss.
The next day our beautiful baby came to the screen and I finally took a deep breath. Strong heart beat. That was all I needed to hear.
A couple of weeks went by and then I had some more bleeding. My OB finally got me in for another ultrasound and we discovered there was a subchorionic hemorrhage, which isn’t super uncommon and wasn’t horrible but just something to keep an eye on.
Because of the hemorrhage I was at the high risk doctor quite often for ultrasounds. We got to find out the gender at 16 weeks. Jason couldn’t come to the appointment so I had the tech put it in an envelope. The boys and I went straight to Jason’s office from the doctor and we opened it together.
I was SHOCKED! I was so convinced it was a boy so it has taken some time for it to all sink in. Fynn reacted with excitement while Sutton’s response was “but I wanted a bbbooooyyyyy!” At least one was excited.
Everyone was so excited and we constantly get the “you finally get your girl” remarks. I was just so excited and so blessed to be pregnant.
With monthly visits to the high risk doctor and monthly visits to the regular OB we have had so many confirmations it is a girl and she is a cutie!
The first of June I was informed there were two exposed blood vessels where the cord attaches to the placenta so I would be starting weekly non-stress tests and biophysicals at 32 weeks. So far so good but ready to have a healthy baby in my arms!
We can’t wait to meet you Evelyn Ann.
I’ve noticed lately little things that have changed in both boys.
They no longer call us mama/mommy and daddy. We have officially switched to mom and dad. And Kiki and Pappy are becoming Kik (keek) and Pap.
Sutton used to be very emotional when things didn’t go his way. Not ALL the time but MOST of the time. It did get draining at times but lately he has been so happy-go-lucky. And since Fynn nursed and Sutton didn’t I always felt like I developed a bond with Fynn easier. I remember crying because I felt like I never saw Sutton when they were newborns. In the past few months I feel as though our bond has grown so much. He loves to sit by me, snuggle with me and ask me LOTS and LOTS of questions. He will ask questions over and over until he understands. When he finally gets it he will say, “OOOOOHHHHH!” with a huge grin.
Sutton is a bit behind on his fine motor skills. The boy does not enjoy coloring or play doh or drawing with chalk….really anything in that realm of activities. But I have introduced new games that will help him develop these skills and he seems to be interested…for the time being.
Fynn is OBSESSED with football. Kid can throw a spiral and catch a running pass. He could play catch for hours. Even when I can’t play he will play alone. And he loves to pick his nose and toot. Yep, kid loves to toot. He thinks it is the funniest thing in the entire world and man oh man do they stink. We keep saying he can only do it at home, outside, in the car and at Kiki’s house. Fynn is a pleaser and super sensitive. If he gets in trouble he gets so upset. Hates for anyone to be unhappy with him.
We just wrapped up our first soccer season. Sutton didn’t surprise me much. He did what I expected him to do – run around like the free spirit he is! Fynn started the season loving practice but when we would scrimmage he freaked out. We taught him to kick the ball in the goal but never introduced the concept of defense and the other team he would play against. He sat out the first few weeks but when Uncle Kelly came into town he helped him on the field and since then he was a soccer stud. He even scored a goal, which with 3 and 4 year olds that is rare. He loved it! Next up….t-ball in the spring.
Fynn: “Pap is about to call me stinky man”
Sutton: “I like to do that, but I don’t like to do that.”
Fynn: “I tooted!”
Fynn: “tomarno” (too-mar-no=tomorrow)
And when referencing anything in the past it was always “last night.”
You both have been asking for a baby for a few months now and it is the sweetest request I’ve ever heard.
Just today on the way home from school Fynn asked when his baby is coming because it is taking a long long time. I asked if he wanted a baby brother or baby sister and as usual he said sister. Then both boys went on and on about how they would rock the baby, give the baby a bottle, a binkie, a baby snack and Fynn said he would share his cars with her.
I love you two so much and I am so lucky to be your mom.
I love my husband. I love that my husband is the father of our children.
Yesterday Jason told me we should let the boys sleep in our bed just because. They never get to do that except the 2-3 times they have been sick. And I love that he reminds me to do things like that.
When I was growing up I never really dreamed of being a mom. I don’t remember playing “mommy” with dolls but rather remember collecting baseball cards and playing with my brother. When Jason and I decided to try to have a baby I never really thought about the newborn phase much. Each year that passed and the desire for a baby became bigger and bigger I dreamed of things that came with motherhood. I couldn’t wait for our kids to come get in our bed on Saturday mornings and to snuggle and make a big breakfast. I couldn’t wait to do things with my kids like take them to the park or zoo. The newborn phase just wasn’t something I thought much about. I looked forward to sweet, innocent conversations with my kids or to teach them things like painting for the first time.
Life tends to get busy and every parent knows the time to get things done is after bedtime. As a photographer that is my time to edit and work. As a mom it’s my time to get laundry done and clean the kitchen. So, when Jason mentioned letting the boys sleep in our bed I brushed it off and said I had too much to get done. Fast forward to our bedtime. I looked at Jason and said, “now I wish we had let them sleep with us.” What did we do? Well of course we went and woke up our kids and brought them to our bed. Sutton slept through the entire thing but Fynn got upset and said, “I wanna sleep in my bed.” We tried for a few minutes but Fynn was all over the place, even bonking heads with Jason and smacking Sutton in the face. Both settled down for a little bit and for a brief moment my arm was wrapped around both boys and I could feel their heart beats. In that moment I stopped and prayed to God. I thanked him for those two heart beats. There was a small window of time in our lives where I didn’t know if we would get to be parents or not. Laying there, feeling each beat of their hearts I thought about those days of worry and fear and sadness. Looking back I know the timing was all God’s work and He had it SOOOO right! Those days of tears and frustration all lead to today. Today I have so much more faith in God’s plan and much more comfort in knowing God has control. I choose to trust Him.
We were a little bummed the boys didn’t last long in our bed. What kid doesn’t want to come sleep in the big bed?!
I’m just thankful for a husband who reminds me to stop and do things like this.
Life is full of HAPPINESS! We are so blessed with two boy who are seriously SO MUCH FUN. They have become so close and sometimes we wonder if it might be a little codependent but who cares..they are 3.
Fynn is somewhat of a “mama’s boy” but he is also so tough and loves things like wrestling with daddy, playing football, jumping on the couch or bed and anything that screams BOY! He is super sensitive and says the sweetest things to me. Today when I picked them up from their 2nd day of school this year he said, “I love you mama.” And we will be driving and he will say, “you’re pretty mama.” They hear it from their daddy!
Fynn literally wants to eat all day long and he is still a good sleeper. I can usually count on him to take a nap. In the morning he will go over and wake up Sutton and ask, “you have sweet dreams bubba?” He really does enjoy learning how things work and what things mean. I get about 300 “why” questions a day.
Fynn could eat mac n’ cheese every day for breakfast, lunch and dinner if I would let him. He really loves to color and draw and is getting really good at writing letters and numbers. Fynn also minds really well and rarely gets in trouble. When he senses he might get in trouble he pulls out one of his “I love you mama” and smiles with his beautiful blue eyes. Already working it!
I always say Sutton is going to sing and dance through life. He is so full of life and extremely expressive. He has the attention spam of a typical 3-year-old boy. He is my emotional, sensitive and outgoing child. He can make friends with anyone he meets. On his first day of school he informed me he had a girlfriend and that night he wanted to pray for her. He has a great imagination! He can come up with fun, descriptive ways to play with his brother. He still doesn’t love sleep. Naps are few and far between. But, when he does nap it is a LLLLOOONGGG one. Sutton loves to REALLY describe everything in detail. And I just want to bottle up his belly laugh and keep it with me forever! When he is in the right mood he will give you LOTS of hugs and kisses. When he gives hugs they are the biggest, sweetest hugs you will ever get! He enjoys reading books and will sit and “read” them forever. And yes he still loves movies and now really loves iPad games.
To say we enjoy these two would be a major understatement.
Cannot believe it’s been almost TWO months since I last posted….shameful!
These goofballs have kepts us quite busy!We get a lot of smiles every day.These guys LOVE flashlights! One of their favorite games is taking their flashlights into mommy & daddy’s room, turning off the lights and shining them on the walls. We can hear lots of giggles when they do it!
We also made a quick trip down to OKC to see my dad and stepmom. While we were there we ran to Kite Park.
We had some fun play dates!
We even got some snow. It was like this for about 10 hours then it had pretty much melted by bedtime.
So glad we got to enjoy it while it lasted.
HUH? WHAT?! I blinked and here are my little men.
Sutton is still my “passionate” child. He has such a carefree spirit, even teachers at school talk about how he walks down the halls in such a carefree way, yet he is OCD about certain things….like DVDs and DVD cases. This all began last year when he became OBSESSED with DVD cases. He had to take them everywhere, all the time. One day I had it with the fits over what case he would take and where it was, etc. so I just took them ALL and hid them. Well….then we went to Kiki’s house and there are cases there and then for Christmas of course he got a new veggie tales so back to square one. But, he will obey mommy and daddy when it’s time to put them up for nap or bed and we don’t take them into restaurants or school anymore. His latest obsession though is moving the actual DVDs from case to case and MAN HE AMAZES ME with his memory. He can recall every single DVD and it’s placement in his big case! He doesn’t like coloring or puzzles but he loves to dance and sing and do the “credit cards,” which are actually flash cards. He is so spirited and has such BIG hugs and kisses to give. He is extremely social when out in public and will say hello and goodbye and give high-fives to anyone he meets. He likes to just randomly say, “hi mama” when we are in the car or hanging out at home. And as soon as he gets in trouble he wants me to hold him, which I don’t until his time is up of course.
He isn’t a fan of the bath and does pretty well with using the potty. He will still have an accident every now and then but it’s usually when he’s wound up playing and not paying attention.
He is so sweet with sharing and almost gets frustrated when Fynn won’t take a toy from him.
Sutton likes to describe and narrate everything he is doing. During breakfast he will say, “I’m going to drink my milk.” Or he will tell me exactly where his poop his, “I have poop in my bottom!” Gotta love toddlers.
At night when he is really tired he will jump into bed and ask me to turn off the light. And as we walk out of their room he will always say, “sweet dreams, love you, good night!”
And when he wakes up he comes downstairs and says, “I had sweet dreams!”
Oh, and he loves to call his brother Fynnie.
Oh Fynnie. My tender, sweet boy. You are a PUZZLE WHIZ! You literally will sit for 45 minutes doing one puzzle and I have to keep getting more so you will be challenged. You like to color and you love play doh as well as race cars. I would say you are pretty “go with the flow” on most things and will eat us out of house and home before we know it. You usually go with what your brother wants but when you speak up with a different choice or opinion I always make sure and listen. You truly love to have undivided attention so I make sure and spend quality time with you each and every day, whether it’s snuggling or doing a puzzle or maybe even reading a book.
You have crazy hair but it’s so cute when it’s long and actually fixed. You will laugh and say, “my hair crazy mama!” You love to explain things and will always tell me about your day at school.
When you dance it is probably the funniest thing in the world because you are so serious, which is complete opposite of your brother.
You are very sensitive and if you don’t get a hug and kiss from daddy before he leaves for work you get really sad. And at night you always want a hug and kiss before you lay down.
You don’t like to be asked if you need to go potty but are really good about not having accidents lately.
You don’t mind washing your hands or brushing your teeth but like your brother you aren’t a huge fan of the bath anymore.
You truly eat ALL DAY LONG. I constantly hear you say, “I need something else.”
You like to play with my hair and to be honest, that I don’t mind.
And when you wake from sleeping you always say to me, “I took a good nap!” because whether it’s afternoon or nighttime it was always a nap.
I’m so proud of how sweet and kind you two are…with each other and with your friends and family. Yes you behave like toddlers at time but your tender souls always shine through. You both say “thank you” when I hand you something or bring you your food/drink. You know the word “please.” You like to hold hands and play with each other. You take turns. You share with each other. You laugh together. You make up games together. You help each other. You love each other.
I’m so thankful to have you two.
Mommy & Daddy love you so so so so so so very much!
Until next post…
Ahhhh, I WILL be better with keeping up my blog this year!! Here’s a recap of December. Busy month. Fun Month.
We made Christmas cookies with Aubrey and Cam.
We also went on the Christmas Train, which I think will be an annual tradition from here on out!
Fynn was so excited for the train ride and Sutton was a little tired and quiet but when we got to the carousel he completely brightened up. He was so happy on there and could have stayed on it all night.
We listened to carol singers, ate yummy stew and cornbread, ride mini horses and drank hot chocolate.
Christmas was a little difficult this year without Grandma.
Luckily the boys being another year old made it more fun because they were finally into opening presents and santa and the whole bit.
Uncle Jordan came to visit as well.
Fynn completely did this on his own. Once he put those glasses on he became an entirely different boy.
The boys are complete wrestlers lately.
We were at a nice Christmas party and they started wrestling in the middle of the floor.
Of course everyone there thought it was so cute and funny but I was mortified.
Luckily they are 2 (ALMOST 3) so we can get away with it for now.
Fynn asked Santa for a race car and Sutton asked for a microphone.
And grandpa Jim and Linda sent this awesome roller coaster!
Papa O gave some awesome stocking stuffers and Sutton loved his Cars magazine.
Aunt Kim and Uncle Tom got this awesome double sided race track that they LOVE!
Miranda got them these cute books that Sutton loves.
Although I love the Christmas decorations I was happy to have our house back to normal once we took everything down.
And of course we had our annual play date with our twin friends!
My goal for 2013 is to do a better job at document my babies since they are almost 3 and no longer babies but BIG BOYS!
Until next post…