evelyn’s arrival

by blair on September 18, 2014

Our little lady arrived August 28 at 8:28 p.m.

Her birth was absolutely amazing!  I have been planning on having a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) since the boys were born.  Where we live there aren’t many doctors who will perform VBACs so your choices are limited.  When I was just over 40 weeks I learned my doctor was going out of town, which meant if I went into labor I wouldn’t be guaranteed a VBAC.  So we decided to do a very conservative induction on the 28th.  Jason and I arrived at the hospital by 7:30 a.m. and things were started about 8:30 a.m.  My body kicked into gear pretty fast and I was laboring well.  I had an awesome nurse and Jason helping me and my doula arrived a little later in the day.  By 4:30 p.m. I was 5 cm and at 5:45 p.m. my water broke.

The entire day I kept hearing a voice say “epidural” over and over and I kept blocking it out.  My goal had been to do a natural birth.  But once my water broke the contractions were completely different and that voice got louder and louder.  My doula had me pick a code word, which meant I was serious and wanted the epidural…..I chose “bumblebee tuna” thanks to help from Jason.  The only thing that kept coming to my head was “butterball turkey” so I kept getting frustrated.  I finally gave my code word and by 6:39 p.m. the epidural was in.

At 7:54 p.m. I started pushing and she was born at 8:28 p.m.  I will NEVER EVER forget that moment when they put her on my chest.  It was that moment I had missed out on with my c-section and was the moment I had dreamed about for years.  It was so surreal and literally almost like an out of body experience.

What followed is a complete blur now.  I remember chaos.  Doctors and nurses everywhere.  Panic on some faces.  Me throwing up over and over.  I zoned out and just stared at our baby.

Turns out my placenta was embedded in my uterus – placenta accreta.  My doctor asked if I was done having kids and would be open to a hysterectomy.  No not ready for that.  I JUST GAVE BIRTH!  She performed a D&C and they literally worked for over an hour and got as much as they could.  This is the point I’m so thankful I had the epidural.  If I hadn’t I would have been rushed to the OR and put under.

From what my doula, husband and mother in law told me there was a lot of blood.

They immediately placed Evie on my chest when she was born and I got to enjoy those first moments but once things got hectic I didn’t get to hold her much.  I was so weak and light-headed and throwing up so I was in condition to hold her.

A few hours later they had me wheeled into a different Labor & Delivery room.  They kept me in L&D because I would need closer monitoring but we lucked out and Jason had his own bed.  They had me on a lot of different medications and my recovery was not what I had expected.  The medications made me tired, nauseous and one made me spike a fever.  I ended up getting two blood transfusions due to all the blood I lost.  It was a little chaotic but through it all Evie was great!  She slept, nursed and pooped around the clock.

Until that Saturday.  Jason had returned from grabbing lunch and he was letting me eat so he changed Evie’s diaper and noticed a little blood.  A nurse was in my room taking my vitals and giving me meds so he had her look at it and then from there it seemed like a whirlwind.  Jason went with her into the nursery for an x-ray and they found blood in her belly.  She was quickly admitted to the step-up NICU for monitoring and testing and received multiple blood transfusions as well.

I WAS A MESS!  I was so emotionally and physically exhausted I couldn’t take much more.  Not only was I dealing with the fears of my situation but now we had to worry if our baby was going to be okay.  By Sunday they had moved her to the children’s hospital NICU, which meant Jason had to wheel me all the way over to see her and it was so difficult leaving her each time.

By Tuesday morning we still didn’t have a cause of the bleeding but she hadn’t passed anymore blood since Sunday evening so they FINALLY let her eat.  She was only supposed to nurse 15 minutes and try to limit her intake to 10mL.  The little overachiever continuously took in more than the “allowed” amount.  By Wednesday they were letting her eat as long and as much as she wanted.  She was finally off IVs and her color was coming back.  I went home Monday night but each day I spent the entire day at the hospital with her.  It was so emotionally draining sitting in there all day.  Being surrounded by all those tiny babies and families who were suffering and dealing with way worse scenarios than us.  It was such a reminder to be thankful we had something fixable and not as serious.  I just sat and prayed and prayed for those babies.

By Thursday morning we were being discharged!  And she came home that afternoon and has been such a sweet baby.  She sleeps so well at night, going on 4 hour stretches.  She was weighed on Tuesday of this week and was already back above her birth weight – 8 lbs 6.5 oz.

I’m currently being monitored weekly by my doctor to see how my body reacts with the remaining placenta.  I’m still on medications, which make me tired and a little out of it but I’m adjusting.  I get weekly blood tests and as of now my body is reacting well.  The placenta appears to be dying off slowly, which is great.  I keep trying to cherish each day and each moment but I am ready to fast forward to the day I am back to “normal” and can enjoy this new family of five.

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evelyn

by blair on July 25, 2014

The story of Evelyn Ann……

I can’t believe it has been so long since my last post!  With my photography business and the boys and every day life time slipped by.

First, the boys are awesome.  We really are blessed with two amazing kiddos!  They just wrapped up their final year at preschool and will begin preK in August.  We played tball this spring and it was hilarious!  They did exactly what I thought they would……Fynn was focused and determined to play well and learn the game while Sutton just had fun.  We did swim lessons for two weeks, which helped SO MUCH with their swimming abilities.

so…..

Last year Jason and I discussed when we would make the move and schedule an appointment with the fertility doctor.  We had a summer full of fun and decided to make the appointment for September.  With the boys we had to do a fresh IVF cycle and it took months and months to get my body regulated and to even do the procedure but we didn’t know what would take place with a frozen embryo transfer.

It still took months….

But, like always, God had a plan and He is always perfect in His ways.  So, on December 5 we finally got to go in for our transfer.  We were giddy and nervous and super hopeful.  Our little embryo was as perfect as it could be.

We had two weeks to wait for an actual blood test but less than a week went by and I couldn’t wait…..I tested and tested and tested.  Positive!!!!!!!!!!

We were able to tell family and our best friends pretty and then got confirmation with the blood test.  The day before our scheduled ultrasound I started bleeding.  I called Jason crying and I was just terrified of losing this baby.  I wasn’t sure I could handle another loss.

The next day our beautiful baby came to the screen and I finally took a deep breath.  Strong heart beat.  That was all I needed to hear.

A couple of weeks went by and then I had some more bleeding.  My OB finally got me in for another ultrasound and we discovered there was a subchorionic hemorrhage, which isn’t super uncommon and wasn’t horrible but just something to keep an eye on.

Because of the hemorrhage I was at the high risk doctor quite often for ultrasounds.  We got to find out the gender at 16 weeks.  Jason couldn’t come to the appointment so I had the tech put it in an envelope.  The boys and I went straight to Jason’s office from the doctor and we opened it together.

GIRL.

I was SHOCKED!  I was so convinced it was a boy so it has taken some time for it to all sink in.  Fynn reacted with excitement while Sutton’s response was “but I wanted a bbbooooyyyyy!”  At least one was excited.

Everyone was so excited and we constantly get the “you finally get your girl” remarks.  I was just so excited and so blessed to be pregnant.

With monthly visits to the high risk doctor and monthly visits to the regular OB we have had so many confirmations it is a girl and she is a cutie!

The first of June I was informed there were two exposed blood vessels where the cord attaches to the placenta so I would be starting weekly non-stress tests and biophysicals at 32 weeks.  So far so good but ready to have a healthy baby in my arms!

We can’t wait to meet you Evelyn Ann.

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Subtle Changes

by blair on November 16, 2013

I’ve noticed lately little things that have changed in both boys.

They no longer call us mama/mommy and daddy.  We have officially switched to mom and dad.  And Kiki and Pappy are becoming Kik (keek) and Pap.

Sutton used to be very emotional when things didn’t go his way.  Not ALL the time but MOST of the time.  It did get draining at times but lately he has been so happy-go-lucky.  And since Fynn nursed and Sutton didn’t I always felt like I developed a bond with Fynn easier.  I remember crying because I felt like I never saw Sutton when they were newborns.  In the past few months I feel as though our bond has grown so much.  He loves to sit by me, snuggle with me and ask me LOTS and LOTS of questions.  He will ask questions over and over until he understands.  When he finally gets it he will say, “OOOOOHHHHH!” with a huge grin.

Sutton is a bit behind on his fine motor skills.  The boy does not enjoy coloring or play doh or drawing with chalk….really anything in that realm of activities.  But I have introduced new games that will help him develop these skills and he seems to be interested…for the time being.

Fynn is OBSESSED with football.  Kid can throw a spiral and catch a running pass.  He could play catch for hours.  Even when I can’t play he will play alone.  And he loves to pick his nose and toot.  Yep, kid loves to toot.  He thinks it is the funniest thing in the entire world and man oh man do they stink.  We keep saying he can only do it at home, outside, in the car and at Kiki’s house.  Fynn is a pleaser and super sensitive.  If he gets in trouble he gets so upset.  Hates for anyone to be unhappy with him.

We just wrapped up our first soccer season.  Sutton didn’t surprise me much.  He did what I expected him to do – run around like the free spirit he is!  Fynn started the season loving practice but when we would scrimmage he freaked out.  We taught him to kick the ball in the goal but never introduced the concept of defense and the other team he would play against.  He sat out the first few weeks but when Uncle Kelly came into town he helped him on the field and since then he was a soccer stud.  He even scored a goal, which with 3 and 4 year olds that is rare.  He loved it!  Next up….t-ball in the spring.

Funny sayings
Fynn: “Pap is about to call me stinky man”
Sutton: “I like to do that, but I don’t like to do that.”
Fynn: “I tooted!”
Fynn: “tomarno” (too-mar-no=tomorrow)

And when referencing anything in the past it was always “last night.”

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A big request

by blair October 8, 2013

You both have been asking for a baby for a few months now and it is the sweetest request I’ve ever heard. Just today on the way home from school Fynn asked when his baby is coming because it is taking a long long time.  I asked if he wanted a baby brother or baby [...]

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In the big bed

by blair September 16, 2013

I love my husband.  I love that my husband is the father of our children. Yesterday Jason told me we should let the boys sleep in our bed just because.  They never get to do that except the 2-3 times they have been sick.  And I love that he reminds me to do things like [...]

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Nothing But Happiness

by blair September 6, 2013

Life is full of HAPPINESS!  We are so blessed with two boy who are seriously SO MUCH FUN.  They have become so close and sometimes we wonder if it might be a little codependent but who cares..they are 3. Fynn is somewhat of a “mama’s boy” but he is also so tough and loves things [...]

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Time is Flyin’ By

by blair March 20, 2013

Cannot believe it’s been almost TWO months since I last posted….shameful! These goofballs have kepts us quite busy!We get a lot of smiles every day.These guys LOVE flashlights!  One of their favorite games is taking their flashlights into mommy & daddy’s room, turning off the lights and shining them on the walls.  We can hear [...]

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And now we’re 3

by blair January 26, 2013

HUH?  WHAT?!  I blinked and here are my little men. Sutton is still my “passionate” child.  He has such a carefree spirit, even teachers at school talk about how he walks down the halls in such a carefree way, yet he is OCD about certain things….like DVDs and DVD cases.  This all began last year [...]

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December 2012

by blair January 12, 2013

Ahhhh, I WILL be better with keeping up my blog this year!!  Here’s a recap of December.  Busy month.  Fun Month. We made Christmas cookies with Aubrey and Cam. We also went on the Christmas Train, which I think will be an annual tradition from here on out! Fynn was so excited for the train [...]

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November 2012

by blair December 21, 2012

Yes we are almost to Christmas and I have yet to post since Halloween.  Life is BUSY!  But it’s a good busy.  Photography business was insanely busy! So, here’s a recap of our November. My sweet friend, Jesse, over at Good Girl Gone Glad was nice enough to snap a few pictures of the four [...]

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